I think it was just yesterday I commented on how I haven’t been very hungry lately.  Today I woke up the first time at 6 am thinking about food.  I was very dizzy so I didn’t get out of bed.  I actually tried to get out of bed like 4 times before I finally got up at 10:40.  

I didn’t want to chance walking around until I knew I wouldn’t fall on my butt.  I was home alone and didn’t want to be a commercial for that emergency necklace thing.  

My stomach was growling for food from the instant I opened my eyes, maybe even before.  I ate and still wanted more food.  I waited 30 minutes to see if I was really still hungry.  Unfortunately, I was, so I ate some more.

 I have thought of food non-stop since then.

 I wonder what it is that makes you starve one day and not even think about eating the next.  I seriously want to eat everything in sight.  Even foods that I don’t even usually like sound good. My son has a PB&J sandwich in the fridge and I am jonesing for it. Weird huh?

I know the hardest part of any day for me is between 3-5 pm.  I am going to be especially careful not to go nuts during that time.

 Luckily, I have a doctor’s appointment at 3:45 today.  Maybe that will keep my mind off eating for a while.   I plan to take a couple bottles of water to nurse off while I wait to see the doctor. We will see if that keeps me from stealing someone’s food.

I did take my first walk last night. It was very short and I almost walked slow enough to be going backwards. I just wanted to get out there and get started. I was winded within a minute and dizzy the entire time. It reminded me of what it was like for me before I started to lose weight. I remember the first day I went out to take a walk and I was tired before the end of the driveway. Yes, I was THAT out of shape. I am definitely proof anyone can lose weight and get in shape.

I guess I just need to look at this as a double journey. First getting my health back and getting my butt back in shape again. Oh and still lose some additional weight. I could definitely lose another 20 pounds. Right now the goal is to walk each day as far as I can without getting so dizzy that I injure myself. Once I get to a point that I am not so dizzy I will walk twice a day. Nothing fast, but just enough that I am burning a few calories while not risking my recovery.

I have to say, if you are reading this and you have not started a workout plan or weight loss plan, but really want to, you should follow with me. I have to take it super slow, so you can’t possibly tell me you can’t keep up. You can start with just cutting sugar out of your diet and walking each evening for 15-20 minutes.

I remember thinking small steps would not make a difference in my weight loss, but I have to say it was all the small steps that made the biggest difference for me because when I took big steps I ended up sabotaging myself. One small change per a week will work way better than trying to uproot your life in a day. You don’t even realize the small changes and before you know it you will see progress, which motivates you to do more.

I say this because it worked for me with my weight loss. I now need to use it in my recovery. Enough ranting for now. Have a good afternoon and start walking!